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growing up
Sunday, December 2, 2012 || 10:59 PM
we might not realize but in fact we are growing up.
we are no longer teenager, not longer the university student that we used to be,
the only responsible we had was study and today it is much more than you think,
how much u pay your mum this month after u get your salary?
what happened to your phone bill, tm bill and tnb bill?
and your new car? insurance?
i was the youngest in the family, used to be the one who took care by others, sibling, parents, boyfie and friends.
today, i still have them to be by my side and take good care about me.
so what is the problem?
the problem is responsibilities urge in
i have the feeling that i should be the one who take care of them right now.
after so many years, under good protection by them.
especially when i've come to notice my mum is walking much slower than i am.
my dad has double wrinkle on his face without my realize.
and now i cant stand guy who is reckless and act silly.
recalling there was one day when i was driving to work, the radio was discussing bout what really happen that make you feel you are really a grown up.
i was thinking the answer for myself.
when was the moment you feel like you are really a grown up?
i.dont.know.
i have my mum that cook me breakfast every morning
i have my dad that make me fruit juice every morning
when they are not around, i will just skip my breakfast.
i have a car to drive to work everyday and i dont even need to worry and pump for petrol.
i was pampered to the max.
i will always always admit and never deny.
i have come to a conclusion, maybe my work is hard but it is also me who cannot solve it with an easier method.
some people tell me, so what? just solve them!
and just like the previous question, i'm having the same answer
i.dont.know.
then figured it out.
i.cant.
it seems like so many barrier there that blocking me, can you teach me?
the answer that came back to me is when you come out to this step.
there will be no lecturer for your subject and if you are lucky you will get one or two senior that willingly answer.
yes i mean answer, if you wanna learn anything, no one will give you a class like how you used to have, you must never never hesitate to ask. ok learnt that.
unfortunately no every question come with an answer, if you dont know you can ask, and no one answer you, you will have to figure out.
from where? nah figure it out
how? figure it out
now i know why people keep having dilemma because well, there are to many unanswered question in this world.
This concluded about why i starting to feel frustrated in my workplace because there are to many problem that i cant handle and mainly because i'm just not smart enough. OMG
