“life will be better in spring”
Thursday, June 28, 2012 || 11:47 PM
Let's say he don't love you.... what will you become today?
Let's say i'm not raise from here... who am i today?
Let's say our love never stay... who are you for my tomorrow?
Let's say nothing has happened... we will be happier than the past?
if we could change the past and talk about future... we will never be us.
that is why God make us talk about past and change our future.
if i can talk to your heart, i wish i can change you to a better person or a better son or better husband or better daddy.
there are times where i hope i'm given a 3rd party eyes, where i can see how people suffer,endure from their experience to their success, in another word, i'm able to see how people gone through their life- happy and sad!
if i'm allowed to request a gift from God to you, i wish you will be granted a pair of eyes, where you will see how somebody suffer for you and how somebody living happily by stepping you on their foot.
this is the only way, you can fully understand how much hurt and disaster you have cause to people who love you and how much love you've granted to person who used you.
what are you thinking? what were you thinking? what you will be thinking in the future?
i dont hate you, simply because i cant not i dont want.
i wish you are someone i'm proud with, not someone i'm about to look down.
we are patiently waiting until the day reach us like your family member waving happily at airport at the moment they see you come back from another country for decades.
The feeling like you finally united with us.
Love never fade, but feeling does.
we still love you but the feeling you gave sometimes rather more disappointed than motivating.
for this one month, after officially done with my study, i've been camping at home and hospital.
i've been really depressed and cry out myself to release all this tension.
p/s not that my dad is in any serious condition but is problem around me.
i've been trying to watch out on everything within my control.
for me, you and us.
we are born to seek for live not death.