“life will be better in spring”

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exam time again.
another 10hours more i will be taking my first paper for this sem.
seriously, i dont feel nervous this time maybe because i'm kinda fed up with the stress i had for the previous sems
or maybe i'm just tired.
anddd i take my limited time to read blog instead of studying and trying to understand,

life is changing and i really dont know is good or bad.
but life should be always changing right?
i dont know what kind of life i will be leading in the future
but i always remind myself.
embrace every moment u have.
chances are from you yourself and people around you.
you dont hold it now it might disappear the next second.
never take people as granted, i tried before that's why i know the concequences for doing it.
i've been thinking why people afraid of changing?
afraid of trying new things
afraid of taking new opportunities
afraid of their mistake
afraid of meeting strange new ridiculous experience

i try to learn from mistake, i really do
because i dont want the same mistake repeating,
i dont want people who's care feel disappointed
i dont want people who's love feel isolated,

i remember when i was in secondary, our sejarah text book quoted something like this

"History should never be erased"
“It tells you how we move along in life and how we became what we are today"

if i forgetten my past i will never know what am i today.
i know i'm not a fawless person and i'm good with it.

i'm not going to say i'm a bird without leg
sorry i dont have wings, i dont fly i stand on the floor most of my time and sleep on bed all the time.
that doesnt mean i dint use my brain.
sometimes i wonder why my brain think sooo much.
are all girls do so?
are all girls constantly worrying?
if u hear me, i hope u know, i always thinking about what our tomorrow will be,
i dont see future but i imagine them
i'm worry
i'm scare
i'm in doubt

Is everything going smooth or everything just my illusion?

i will try to accept or push away things i dont like but i will never change what you are,
the problem is i dunno how many acceptance i can take and how many i cant.

the spark is here but how long it can stay? can u answer me? because i couldnt..