“life will be better in spring”
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 || 3:33 AM
- i need to sleep for 24 hours
- i wan blog and post pics on fb.
- i wan go eat breakfast with my mummy.
- i wan watch whatever i want.
- i need to do facial or mask or whatever that my face need now.
- i need a hair cut or a change in color. back to black
- i need to buy new pair of shoe
i was suppose to blog it long time ago, but i'm just too lazy to make it.
so now, this what we did before our sem break and i think my tolerance toward alcohol become weaker and weaker.
AISH, dun ask me why, because i never good at drinking.
Let me do the counting, we werent drinking much tat day,
1, 2 . . . . 5 buckets only
and we have 4persons together.
we were just sohai-ing
since i'm always the one who willing to take the camera out and take pics.
i dont really remember his name, what i know is
he is eu yang's friend and he is in foundation year 1 sem 1.
someone was busy sms-ing, so i dont bother to disturb him. random1.. i'm just too freeeeeee.
Thursday, September 17, 2009 || 9:23 PM
my future is in my hands right?my life should be whatever i like right?all those uncertainty is me alone to face right?so i have the right to tell myself i dont like to study right?the first time tearing because of resultthe first time getting all nervous because of resulti know i know, because i'm study last minute.serve me rightbut i did study u know? and what i get all of it?i dont want to ask about the answer because i'm soooo scare of it.even i feel like cry my lungs out but still i cant do it.i know, my parents are worry about me.i know they dont force me.but sorry, i really hate it when i see the paper.i dont want to face it anymoreee. i'm so scare!what can i do?no word match my feeling now.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009 || 5:06 AM
u can see this is why sometime i dont like blogspot, why they can let me choose to lock specific post?
oh, i change my template again, so u can see it's all mess up now.
but sorry, i have no time to beautify it so bare with me until my exams end.
ARghh. this is not my point for today.
i'm supposedly studying instead, again blogging
i was thinking should i just lock it until i finish my exam so that i wouldn't have to ohm to blog
but i failed to do it.
3more hours will be my first blood for this sem,
i guess alot of u heard this from my mouth
" i'm not going to study in utar if i failed one subject in this sem"
how easy to write or to say, but i'm not dare to take action.
sorry that i cant become like everyone study and study,
sorry to my parents that i'm not hardworking enough
sorry to my brain that i'm not smart enough
sorry that i hate exam to max.
sorry that i cant handle stress smartly
if i can take a decision without thinking of my future i will be doing something more fun now.
as i said, i dun und why i'm getting all nervous like shit when i'm having exam.
seriously i'm telling myself " HEY, get a life!" everytime but i just cant do it.
it's like first time i admitted that i soooo useless.
my brain is not functioning well now, i dont know how am i going to memorise all them later,
i think if i posted my voice i'm able to do it better.
and suddenly i miss my parents, especially my dad.
who tell me "if u dun wan study now, i can help u pack everything home."
I LOVE YOU ,daddy.
i know it's not good but still i really hate study now.
althought i said i hate hate hate for x1000times but still never dare to sleep now even i'm sleepy now.
i'm going to fight for it!!!!!! please, hallelujah or whatever, please, give me the OHM or whatever that can i read and remember immediately.
off too fight econ for the 2 hours later test.
Happy Birthday Andrew Yew
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 || 8:59 PM
since i had been so sui lui yesterday.so i think i as well dedicate a post for you, bro.this is the 1st time to say happy birthday.dim? lou jor? XDu requested a birthday song yesterday and i fail to do itden i will sing it here la.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANDREW
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!hoi sam mou?wish all your dream come true : )with a family picture XD
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 || 1:50 AM
i think i should make a list out:-
- i scare that i need to repeat the test
- i scare that i cant make it graduate in the time of 3 years
- i scare of losing to the other
- i dont want to pay for the repeat fees
- i dont want to retake mid-term and assesment
way to solve it:-
- i dont want people look down on me
- pray to god hope that he will bless u
- just set a mind that if u are nervous u are not going to do it well so leave it like i dont a give a damn might turn out better because the anxiety gone
anymore suggestion? i think this is most freaking final that i'm scared of!
- run away and stop my study