“life will be better in spring”
Tuesday, August 25, 2009 || 12:06 AM
i'm not in the right mind nowww.
i get my result for QT and thanks alotit's stress my out because of the result.u knoww what? i hate exams!everyone is telling me that "it's time to start study""final is coming""degree isnt that easy compare to foundation"so thanks for these.i'm planning in my mind or doing some thinking how am i able to handle this coming finals.how i wish i'm still in happily-ever-primary school.where should i start? and they are everyone and haunting me
Saturday, August 22, 2009 || 12:39 AM
"i'm a good student"went to find adviser last week i remember i told my adviser that i'm a good student.this few days were a good example.i wake up in the morning twice : ) like 8 amthanks to ptptnit's not easy not easy since i have no more morning class anymore, you wont expect me to wake up early 8 am and do nothing right?being normal is really easy but who loves to stay normal?i'm tryinggo class everyday when i can wake upcome back from class, on my laptop wait for the timecook my own dinner, watch those typical HK drama series.and wait for time to sleep or maybe yum cha with few friends.i've keep the same for the whole weekbeing a normal student who go class and study.perhaps i'm thinking when i will get bored and burst out something different. __________________________________♥________________________________
"she says she is anti-social now"
"u all are so childish do u know?"i dont know why the word childish will come out from my mouth.because i'm known as the childish one.i'm never good at admitting my own problem that's why i run away every time i'm facing difficulties.and yet i'm trying to know why they argue and solve it when i know i'm not problem-solvermaybe she is right
"she is the one"
"he is the one"
"u know what?"i tried so many times to just put down the ego and try to listen to my heartsometimes i wonder why her? why her?it's not like u cannot choose?why must the one i once told u i dont like?why must the one i once told u to be careful for?and i once soften when i heard
"we always let our ego take over us"
"that's why we always fail to do what we said"
"she tried before"
because she did try and i will smile
and it's just make remember somethingu have the right to choose who you want to be with and i cant choose for you or change your mind.the problem is me because i always thought maybe one day we can at least know how to say " hi"
i get emo when it's accidentally hits me, this is pathetic because i cant stop thinking when i'm alone.can anyone teach me how to be not busybody please?
emo is for pessimistic person
and i'm not.
that's i will select part that not suppose to think anymore because i always
The official ends of story
Saturday, August 15, 2009 || 4:42 PM
time flies and i'm still here.dont have emo post, dont have any happy-ever post.which mean my life back to lifeless again,so yesterday i went jaya jusco and can obviously see effect of H1N1 by seeing how much peoples there.it's kinda annoying that everyone seems to be so scare of this.but who dont scare?i knowwww life is short and i'm 100% guarantee u will regret if u die this second,no matter how u spend ur life, that will be still not enough.see? people is greedy so do iwho know maybe not H1N1maybe u got heart attack when u are clubbing happily in rum.maybe u chock to the dieth when u are eating to toufu.maybe u will get into an incident when you are driving 30km/hand i bet that minute u never know this will going to happen and also the Utar kid.will u regret for not staying at home with ur family that minute?will u say i should stay at home and rest instead of waking up and clubbing midnight?maybe u will say i should just eat abalone instead of toufu if u know u are going to die?i'm kinda not the same now.i dont know why, watch tv will makes me cry bleeding will makes me cry and exam will depress me.which will never happen when i'm in secondary time.i'm kinda scare of exams until i can feel my hands trembling while i'm in the hall.this is not a good scene not ever.i wanna be back the one who says"mou diu lar"teach me how? how? how?oh ya, i went back to school alone last friday. i skip my class and run back to ipoh at thursday. u know why?because i miss ipoh, simply yet meaningful.
my ph is died now, gonna put on some pictures later. badminton court and canteen i hates him and he hates me seems that peoples are starting to make blog and write about their routine.
we were siting together during form3 old days.
and i love it.
so that u can know without asking.
but usually i cant feel what they are feeling inside,
face to face talking is always the best to settle problems.
at least u still get to know what others doing when u are anti-social,
andrew told me to take a few pic of this and i think shud blog it how terrible we were on that day.
and i'm so sure my cholesterol was over limit because we ate more than half dozen of eggs. u will think we go with alot of peoples but no, there are only 3 of us beacause one ffk and the name goes to ng eu yang.
they have no place else to digest the 3 eggs left.
u see these pity prawns? they are all killed by andrew yew and chin jee kent. okay
i admit. i killed one because i dont really eat prawn.
If I could save up my tears, I could create another ocean for the world to reckon with.
sound sweet but pathetic.
Monday, August 10, 2009 || 2:39 AM
GD has just put one of his new song in his me2day (korean version twitter)
off luh XD
Sunday, August 9, 2009 || 1:54 AM
Finally done with all midterms.
i'm considered merdeka. HURRAAAYYY
and final is coming
who's care, right?
and finally i got to have my nice dinner after midterm.
my mum love me isnt it?
this is consider side dishes i think. kimchi is a must for this.
how u eat the meat with diff kind of vegiee.
i dont know why but this taste like strawberry and i wonder my taste bud got problem?
this is sooooooooooooooo NICE with the sos given.
"kimchi soup"kinda miss this soup, u know i hate eat rice without soup.HAHA, the watak-watak for my dinner~ YUMMY
my niece or nephew? jia wen
she is cute ♥ lalalala~♫ i know there is a class bbq today, sorry i'm not there.perhaps next time i will be there. if u were me, you will choose what i have tonight than bbq. i swearthis shop is like 2 years ++ agoand now only i uploaded these pictures.u know why? u know why?because i'm happy today~i know it's gross to mix this topic together but i'm really x1000 hate cockroaches.they are ugly, smelly and annoying. why?because this little ugly,smelly, annoying creatures has attacked my hometown's toilet when i wanna go bath. damn it.i'm so freaked out so i decided to settle it but who the hell know that this little evil creature know how to fly and attacked me back.
♥ chooiting and another cute baby ♥
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.at the end, i scream like no one sleeping and smacked it with an old magazine.due to my high-pitched screaming, my bro run in and collected the little evil corpse.and because chooi ting is very angelic. she is here to pray for the cockroach r.i.p with michael jackson.
Monday, August 3, 2009 || 1:43 PM
there are many times i heard the word endorphins in dramas.the first i heard it from My Name Is Kim Sam Soon, the second time i heard it in a Hk drama series.i have been wondering what it is, so ystd after i gave up my assignment i went and google about this word.the explanation how love come from in a logic theory.In human chemistry, the endorphin theory of love is a view that when two people fall in love the body will release a plethora of endorphins, the body's natural morphine (a heroine like substance), and that this accounts for the pleasurable feelings of being in love. The relationship between brain endorphin release and love, or particularly sex and marriage.they make a relationship steadier, intimate, dependable, warm and a great sharing experience.
They do not induce a giddy high, but calmness and stability…hence are the reason why people stay married. The longer they are married, the longer two people stay together, because this chemical is addictive. It is endorphins that trigger grief on a spouse’s death or long separation, those yearnings for togetherness. The two types of attachments can be summed up as follows…adrenaline love is being in love with the idea of being in love. While endorphins, we like loving someone. and andandthey have thisHigh concentrations of endorphins in the brain produce a sense of euphoria, enhance pleasure, and suppress pain, both emotionally and physically. When endorphins are low, people feel anxious; they are also more aware of pain. They have an appetite for fat and fatty foods, such as fries, cheese, creamy sauces, margarine, butter, fried chicken, potato chips, and chocolate, to name some of the most popular examples. Upon eating some fat, they will notice a change in mood, feeling more pleasure. This feeling is related to a higher concentration of endorphin.do i need to laugh more? or addicted to something? or in love with someone deeply?
because they say, this is natural pain killer which not harm like drugs. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
i wonder do every lover release this kind of hormones?
then can endorphins different what type of love they having?
then why do they divorce after all? the hormones disappear?
where the hormones go when couple decided to break up?
if everything can be so reasonable and logical than why do we have why again and again?
crapping, bear with me lar.
Sunday, August 2, 2009 || 1:52 AM
she thinks she is not being herself recently and this bother her.
she don't know what makes her thinks so, but this just popped out from no where.
she needs a pair of new shoe.
she hate exams, tests, assignments.
she heard alot of complaint from others when the days in Utar but she told herself that never hate this place because she will be there for 4 years.
once she hate something she will be stubborn enough to like it back.
that's why she keep telling herself that kampar is not that bad Utar is not that bad.
but time goes and after one year there she is confused whether she can stay her mind that she dont hates kampar.
she is being a lazy ass, no really studying and she think even she had study she still dun understand so she dun bother to put any effort on it but still she cares about her result.
and remind her that her friends couldn't be there for her forever.
she feel a mixture feeling inside her hearts.
guilty, irresponsible,annoyed, irritated, and etc that she doesn't know how to describe.
just for information, she is a lil aggressive that she don't like people saying her stupid even she is a really not-smart-person.
but she think she is possible to stand till the next week, the last mid-term for her and after that she will decide what, how she needs to behave for her finals.
after all, she needs to think for her future that no one knows about.