“life will be better in spring”

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today i have deleted some post in my blog
the post i use to say how i dont like and how she act after that day.
most of u know who i saying since i'm not tat type who will keep secret to myself.
so u know why i do lidat?
no, i;m not going to open my blog yet or can say as not planning to do so.
i just feel like she is not important anymore so it does not effect much to me anymore.
so i dont want to keep it, and for some of you might think i'm forever happy girl right?
i'm not, but i just try my best not to be too sad .
cos i hate the feeling of that.
nah, u can say i'm emo or whatever.
i'm not very good in EQ and also IQ.
i guess she has her reason doing thing like that or behave lidat
and the reason i will forver dont know, even i'm curious for once upon a time.
and i realize she did take a part of my blog.
meaning she consider a quite important person to me last time.
when every time u look back to urself u will feel that u kind childish by doing this or that.
when i deleted my post about her i feel the same thing.
childish for writing things lidat comment things lidat.
yesterday i found a very old book and it was about EQ or wateve shit things la.
quiet accurate for me.
if u comment or ur write for it meaning u care, since u care alot why do u write smtg bad about her? to release? but actually at the same time u might writing smtg that hurt her too.
yea, if u dont care, what for thinking about the sad memory again?
no use right? since she is not some one that worth ur care anymore than why u have to remind back?
no reason hor?
that's why i just to delete, to delete the post or forget the memory we have together last time.
people say smtg like
ur tongue is actually a weapon of urs, it's like a sword that hurt even more.
i think it's smtg from public speaking.
cant really remember where this come from.
i used to tell ah mun that i'm not easy to understand but guess what?
i just found out that i'm just the one who dun understand myself.
i think so, that's why i used to think that i'm a complicated living thing.
NAH, this proved, i'm not.
i just like to make everything more complicated.
we have deleted the memory that might mean something but actually nothing.
see, complicated.
bluek~


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