“life will be better in spring”
the last time
Wednesday, October 22, 2008 || 4:29 PM
let me cry for her the last time.
even though how i cant let go
cos i know i can do it ard.
without the smile the laugh the memory.
even it's so LAME
but yea. i will make it.
sound like so gay.
but it's has to be like that.
NO MORE I LOVE YOU
the songs chun and seriously reflect to my situation
i'm still Lee Chooi Ting
cheer my mind
the last time.
all the caring all the funniest time
all the sadness all the memory
i will go without u.
i'm too BAD
Thursday, October 16, 2008 || 1:53 AM
i feel like when i dont want to tell something
i will tell like i have lost my own control
luckily i tell those who duno
MAYBE i purposely tell lor.
they dont know her*
feel like it's VERY BAD
but i guess this is my way to release
instead of crying everyday like mei sin
i'm not like that
but it's going to be worst
i found that i like going to cry in front of them
even thought it look like asking ppl to pity me
BUT WHAT I HAD TOLD
i really need a shoulder to let me cry.
i need a simple hug
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 || 12:48 AM
i need a very simple hug to tell me
girl, u are strong dont worry
i'm looking for a shoulder to cry to let me cry whatever i wants
but i cant find it.
i found that i'm going weaker and weaker
it's like i still feel alone even there is many people here.
i dont cry when i wants
i cry when i dont want
i'm bad in the way release.
that's too BAD too get one best friend
no way for next time XD
seriously. no worth for it
since u had said bye bye
den just probably stay along.
dont regret even when u feel helpless.
cheer my mind.
that is not that bad to have a life like now.
even it's not the best but dont make it the worst.
instead of finding shoulder to let me cry i prefer find a way to let me say: IT'S TIRING
sound like i can release for second or minute.
i LOVE you when u are u duno who u are.
instead of giving up and showing ur weakness i prefer to act to hide.
even it's BAD but it's still best way for ME
it's happened form what i had expected
Wednesday, October 1, 2008 || 3:03 AM
know that life will never be perfect.
even thought it's nice and wonderful
but it's NEVER never to be perfect.
this is the way we need to justify
thought i will never wants to write it down
but at the end
I'm still here to write to talk to release
feel that I'm bad
but at least i can say what i want
although i know they will be no one to know itTHAT IS WHAT I WANT
i just wanna to record the feeling i feel now
but not the whole story
A bit annoying.
but i don't care since i wanna to release i can write whatever i like
i cut his head down
life are unpredictable because it's fun for today but it will be emotional for tomorrow.
i still the same thing
"appreciate everything i have"
wish i can really do it
there is a doubt XD
there will be miracle when u believe
it's hard to happen
but when it's really happen u will never know
when you wake up you know that it's just another hopeless day.
and you know there is something badly happened on that
the most bad thing is to have the people you thought were your friends, turn there back. Actually we thought both of us are friends
maybe because of this i think differently than her.
it make me more fed up because i know she doesn't like how i careTOO BAD
to know this! :(
it's like some you care about and care about you but at the same time want to change you.
maybe we don't want change each other that's why we suffer when each other have changed.
and we have different condition for our life
and this make me feel clubbing is extremely BAD
i hate people drink when they don't know how to take care yourself
i don't know how to justify how people get drunk
but i did get dizzy that day
you have your emotional i have mine wan too.
what i had done wrong tat day?
ask jiji to be my daddy?
it's just to have fun-lor
grab you away from Danny?
don't tell me anything else.
ALL I WANT IT IS U HAVE YOUR FUN.
I HAVE MY FUN.
i dont want to talk it's because i don't want end up the relation between us.
when i ready to listen might equal i ready to get mad.
or give up.
BLUEK! FINE FINE FINE! i have to settle my emotional!