“life will be better in spring”
my life isnt that imperfect
Saturday, September 20, 2008 || 12:57 AM
I knew when people grew older the things they see will change.
I'm recording everything that make me feel that my life is changing.
I'm angry to many things when I'm angry
but i learn to appreciate it after i had angry.
teaching and learning from this environment.
I'm not willing to stop
i might no mature but don't want do be too immature at the same time.
i have my friends to accompany when I'm sad.
my family even though never attend very important role when i need them,
but i think i couldn't stay my life without them.
never never changed.
that's why no matter how am i disappoint
how am i feeling sad
how am i happy for the second
i'm still everyone to be here with me.
life will will be incomplete
family and friends are needed but not many.
i need caring, loving, responsible and funny people to with me.
At the same time, i need to be someone responsible,funny, caring and loving for someone.
this is the rule.
i might be what am i for today but i might will change for tomorrow too.
i feel happy when people cares my birthday like my family and friends.
feels like i'm not lack of caring.
i just lack of understanding.
anyway, they did their best to cheer my back. [i think]
that's why my life isn't that imperfect like what i feel.
-i need understanding
to let me cross over the world-
To be free
like a bird need to sacrifice
stressing like HELL
Thursday, September 18, 2008 || 2:55 AM
i scare this kind of stress.
never know how to solve it.
and i'm like the only wan who stay and wait.
peoples around all going without me.
yea, i dont know how to do my acc.
i dun feel that i'm useless but i'm seriously stressing now.
everyone knows more than me even they are in science stream.
i'm like looking for people to stay with me.
who know, all are studying and fighting with anonymous stress and i,
staying with a tired face.
i scare, scare that one day i will be really useless.
11hours more i will taking my acc paper.
and the same thing i still dont willing to start my study.helpless
i know i wont feel this after 13hours but..
i dont like the feeling like that.
i dont know what i suppose to do.
AS WHAT I SAID BEFORE I HATE ACCOUNTS
and now is still hating. ignoring
i know i will not cry because of helpless.
but do feel depress alots now.
by the way. yea.
i shud write it here.
even i did not do anything obviously to him.
but when i get to know his gf.
i feel bad.
but i'm not that weak.
a slightly feeling for this moment.
i dont freaking care and dont give a damn at all
ACCOUNT IS NATURAL DISASTER
i cant understand anything for now.
wish to have some nice words even though it's impossible
i still wish.
i don't need anything to be happy
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 || 5:44 PM
춤추라, 아무도 바라보고 있지 않은 것처럼.
Dance like no one is watching
사랑하라, 한번도 상처받지 않은 것처럼.
Love like you've never been hurt
노래하라, 아무도 듣고 있지 않은것처럼.
Sing like no one is listening
일하라, 돈이빌요하지 않은 것처럼.
Work like you don't need the money
살라, 오늘이 마지막 날인 것처럼.
Live life every day as if it were your lastlove like you've never been hurt
i can dont give a damn to anything but i will still happy even there is nothing
i dont mind letting the whole world know that i have a crush on you but i do mind that you will know it
there is me.
a naive wan.
But no matter how even there is a tiny thing can make smile and think that is sweet.
no matter how many things that i have experienced badly but memory or feeling that sweet can wash away everything in my mind.
i'm not stubborn in things that unhappy but things come to be like that couldn't delete but only forget for temporary.
i'm still a cheerful people that is always no doubt inside.
I'm still rock but not when come to my sensitive things.
everything comes and go.
but i hope the memories no matter bad or good will stay here for me.
happy because left 1 subject to go
what i have suffer might ends.
i dont ignore and also dont love it.
sad is because i'm going to stay for 3 weeks without you.
a totally lost connection.
i knew everything was not that deep feeling for me but i really loves the time that i will smile when i think about you.
silly but cute= sohai.
i'm still strong even there are many things happened.
dou dou will keep but not delete.
i see everything goes easily but am i really a easy going people?
i dont know but i prefer to stay this condition.
dont want to change alots just because something unreasonable.
i dont wan change because the world is changing i wan to change because i'm changing.
no doubt. i'm happy that u are here and i'm here.
this is fate
even fate dont let me to know you but fate let me meet once in awhile.
there is enough for me.
chooiting feeling happiness for this moment.