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at first i tot it's all my fault who not going back
and i noe i'm kinda make people worry.
i dont like they keep on calling cos they want me to go back but i dont want
i dont feel lke going home and give me reasons
they dont accept they dont feel that i'm really study here
fine!
i dont care since i it's like ntg special that they trust me
but i will just put it ad my fault by making them not trust
not i wont anything
yesterdat they told me they worry about they want to here
with a whole building that a just oni a girl
so i was like uhuh?! i will take care
den later i say i can go back but u must bring me back when sunday night
they dont want they say if i come back why must i come back sunday
den i say i wan study i really feel stress
why i cant study at home?
i say u all will disturb me u all wont let study in full concentration
it's might not a good reason to stay here
but i just dont feel to go home
so i said it.
THEY USE THE REASON I CANT STUDY HERE THEY WORRRY ME
but the truth is they scare i go out they tot i dated someone
i dont wan to say anything
my home doesnt look like a home doesnt feel like home
so what for i go back?


haar
i like laughing myself who pity or? to happiness?

mother fucker...
it is kinda annoying.
i like the baddest feeling girl in the world
i wan go back or not actually is not decided by them.
why must force me to choose
in case they are not caring wat u think
they just dont believe u and wondering whether what is udang di sebalik batu of me
ARGHHHHH
i think there is no way for me to talk with them by a better way
i hate it u know?
why must make feel so suffer myself?
why i want to stay here?
suffer myself for fun?
they are kinda annoying now
i study not only for myself ok?
i'm using their money now
i dont waste their moeny that's why i choose to suffer here
but see what i get for excahnge is they tot i will go sumwhere else
DUHHHHH



i'm just wondering
i found out i like to obsessed to ah bu jak ady
i will purposely stand in front of him
cos i THOUGHT he will come over and flirt me gua~
i'm like 'waiting for something'
ishh... how can i become like that?
impossible right?
no way~
must learn to say NO in front of him!
i should think like that and act like that but not behave like now~
even i know he is trying to take my attention cos he tot he can do it but he failed cos he dunno that i'm strong like a MAN~
even stronger than him
cos u know what?
i wont get close wif guy that have girlfriend
that is not my style not my way not my attitude~
but i think my wall is going to destroy by him
i dont want~
i rather he hurt me kau kau!
i will feel much more better~
show time
yea~ is him is him!
wowowowowowowowow(so called magician)
no matter i still need to admit he magic skill really good and i once smile because of him seriously~ no doubt!
and i'm not going to deny it!
just i dont wish it will happen again~
i dunno i cant stand until when~
so PLS DONT GODA ME
bluek bluek~
get off~ say NO TO DRUG?
den say NO TOO SUSUMAN (so called magician)
yea~ i can do it(i wish so)
i dont freaking cares!
but i REALLY REALLY cares~
how?
i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want
rawww~
who am i?
i'm chooiting!!
u know who? Lee Chooi Ting!!!

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Love Is In The Air
That's why I LOVE EVERYONE~
MUACKS~
chooi ting feel couldnt stand for his goda ady~(no wan goda her actually)
yeah yeah~ tak mau muka ma! fine la

the opinion on ah bu jak

now are the bad one first:
-he purposely make us feel bad to him
-according to wai seng and kent, he is purposely come over to me because of what arshveen said
-he always appear when he want dun wan appear when he dun want meaning i cant see him when i want
-he had girlfriend but still flirt people (i think he is flirting me[muka tak mau face])
-i'm just trying to figure out his bad to make me feel better.(although i know that is no use)

now are the good thing of him:
-even though arshveen told him something that:'she want to know you'
if he really dun cares about me he can just avoid me or do nothing but he did something. he came over and do something infront of me~
yeah. i care alots
but i can really act~
act like a dont care!


today i'm debater for team too
yea. i hide behind the screen!
they tot i crazy ady~
i'm jut wondering why hor?
cos they keep on saying i'm bad
neh neh neh~
i know how to fight people well~
and i just want to remind myself
ah bu jak is just for me eyes but not my heart

i'm just wondering why ah bu jak will do something like this
and now i found out the answer
yea..
i know i'm not pretty
and i dun even wants to disturb his life as i just want to know his group
i din even say tat i wants to know him
why arshveen wanna to like that?
no wonder ah bu jak will come over and show magic
it's all because of arshveen
he told ah bu jak that i wanna to know him
omg, when did i say that?
fucker
i din even say anything
so innocent
who knows arshveen will say like that if not i wont saying all ah bu jak things to him
arghh
he is spoilling my life
seng seng and kent told me that he is purposely wan
and i knew it just duno why he wanna to like this
and now i found out the answer but i'm not happy
i just feel annoying
all the words he said still fresh in my mind
i try to control that he is lier and he got gf
but it's still inside my mind~
cos maybe arshveen said something to him but doesnt mean he need to cares
but he do cares and come over
why he cares arshveen said about me?
bothering very funny is it?
when i said that he will oni be a little charac in my life
i dont want to make him into complicated
like last time
but what ah bu jak did make me feel bad and abit happy
what should i do?
they said ah bu jak very 9.. yeah, i feel so
but i dont hate when they say they wan to critic him i dun feel good for him too
yea.. i cant make decision






chooiting is blur
she dont want in love to ah bu jak
just wanna him be a simple normal guy in my life
cos i scare that it will be repeat like what last time
dont want spoil the feeling

arghhh..
when i choose to kap him silently and dun even think wanna to kacau his life
and now he come over disturb me worr
so lan 9
yerrrr....
why jek?
ah bu jak today suddenly come over and play magic infront of us lehh..
diu nia sing~
why oways flirt around worr
summo wanna flirt in front of me
NIA MA HEIIIIIII
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
muka yg still smile shohaily
tak tau malu lorrr
i dun care la
i dun wan him..
get off
i was like
'i can see u' 'i can see u'
i noe u was sumwhwere around but just dun wan to see u
den he came over worr
i dun wan lor~
TT
I'M INNOCENT
BLUEK