“life will be better in spring”
another sad story begin
Thursday, July 31, 2008 || 11:48 PM
Hmm. kk perfume until ah bu jak~
all got gf ady lor~
finally as what i said..
ah bu jak is a guy for me to observe during my uni life
so just let him be a little bit special than other
i dun mind observe him slowly.
i wan to find a guy a little bit special than others~
to prove that he is a little bit special in my heart
no matter wat~
just a little but more to sayang him
just for him
might be not my style but i still hope he will be the special wan~
i noe I'm quite sohai.
i dont care ma~
so just cont.
to observe him a little bit more than others
neh neh neh~
i ady change~
maybei'm waiting 1 day he will realize that i'm observing him so that he will noe that i'm appear in the world~
i'm not clever but i just a little bit more to prefer like this
if possible i wanna it be little bit more than normal
but not just let me observe him like what i like~
cos there will me no one can avoid me to do~
so i just like to bit like this.
i'm Chooi Ting who dun like to lost things that belongs to me but luckily i'm good in my eq controlling my emo~
neh neh neh~
|| 1:24 AM
yea~ i'm actually quit blur
not really good in explaining things in words
just cant describe the feeling as u like
i dun wan to appreciate
but i learn to know
i dun wan to be emo
but l learn to know
i wan to blur
but i'm actually clear like every one
i dun have things that make me get mad but just i will mad at thing suddenly
i wanna sum to lent me his or her shoulder to let me cry
let me noe
let me stop emo-ing
i wan a human who really belongs to me
who oways cares for me
i nvr desperate but just waiting
waiting the 1 who coming
i dun like to cry doesnt mean i'm strong
just i'm a little bit hate of crying
i noe how to cry
we are born to learn do not cry..
to be strong to give ur shoulder to comfort peoples~
i'm not god~
so i duno how to describe the feelings that u actually wan to cry but u cant cry forcing urself not to cry
behave like u are non stop doing smtg u dun like~
i'm kind and care enuf to ppls are good
but dun try to cross over limt~
everything will be over
to think or to comment people?
i duno leh~
in KAMPAR there is no one can make me laugh like mgs
dun have the cheer who can make me laugh sohaily
dun have the gang that can make me feel really comfortable
losing smtg izit really mean u will gain back smtg?
i'm waiting my reward
or izit my lose still not enuf for me to gain my reward?
i tot when i drunk i will cry but who know
i din cry tat day~
Actually utar got mei poh and carlie but they are not the peoples i wan
they are fakers!
i can sure~
cos i noe how to observe ppl
Someone told me when u tot u are good in observation u are actually noot cos u dun actually und urself so he ask me to believe wat i have observed~
but too bad~ this ady one of my hooby~
maybe i'm not correct but i still prefer to observe even i can see the things that other ppl cant see or maybe what i see is just what the impression sum1 to me but not really what they are
i more prefer to believe wat i can see thru my eyes and my heart~
I WAN MILK~
today: chooiting was a little bit emo cos yijun cant cheer her up and trying to pull her down! i was wondering where ah bu jak come from?
shud i stay like thsi or just go over? ah bluek~
Thursday, July 10, 2008 || 1:50 AM
today ah bu jak sitting wif a girl and damn close~
i duno what to comment about but just make me feel like i'm blur~
very very blur!
he wan to flirt that girl or that girl wanna flirt him?
and and and he dun look like people who noe how to dance but damn him!
he really know how to dance summo is he is teaching ppl!
i was like 'he got so pro ar?'
i dun wan think about him la!
make me confuse aje!
hate him hate him hate him!!!!!!
-AH BU JAK-
Friday, July 4, 2008 || 7:04 AM
I'm happy bcos i ady noe ah bu jak name~
Chan Yick Honl~
i think he really come from hong kong la if not why his name so weird?
like really Cantonese name oni!
I'm simple happy when i starting to some of his detail~
even though he is sohai enuf for me~
i like the blur i lik ethe way i like the things he make me smile~
although i'm adi abit abnormal b4 this but he do make me more sohai~
i'm cute to be lidat it's enuf for me to be lidat~
i love everything that wif me now~
and appreciate them for appearing in my life~
not oni my fren but oso the ppl who come and go from me!
they make me noe more about the world so that i'm not that out of gang!
SIMPLE WORD BRING HAPPINESS TO ME~
i feel everthing is ok for me now~
i'm glad that u are in my life~
|| 7:04 AM