“life will be better in spring”
the day offer letter come~
Thursday, May 15, 2008 || 9:10 PM
finally offer letter safely come to my hand..and bring alot alot alot FAN-ness to me!!
i get headache today..
i tot i get brain cancer tat time...
but is wondering la..
den i was thinking whether i suppose to tell my mum i am head aching..
cos i really hope to slp awhile and i know i juzst run up by not telling her she will get mad to me!!
and i f i tell her i headache she will jzut say dei la dei la.. who ask u like to play comp all the time till u dun wan slp...
and thos make me wondering wat shud i do...
but lastly i told her..
told her i headache but it is still the same thing tat i expect.. no diff.
but atleast she ask me to take medicine..
den i go slp..
later i woke up.. actually wanna ask my dad about the payment or the fees for utar geh..
he ask me.. go slp 1st or go eat 1st den play enuf liao oni ask..
wat their meaning?
i duno.... i shud say wat?
it will nvr affect me.. cos i dun wan to make my feeling go down..
but anyways~ chooiting is still chooiting..
that will nvr change me!!!
chooiting is happy cos utar wan me~
Thursday, May 8, 2008 || 2:26 AM
cried again.. cos i'm alone again..
just feel that everyone have their future have thy road to go on..
like sakai lidat!!
i told lawyijun is bcos i scared i cant find the one under the same sky with me..
she say dun lan sexy~~ yea.. i'm lan-ing
cos i really hope some one can really quietly see me crying and not asking for reason.. after i cried and make some jokes wif me to bring back my smile~
i laugh bcos i ter'think' back yijun's told m e keat eing said utar alot 'mix'
den i laugh ah seoong and penguinbb are hemsem? cos they are indonesian chinese!!
i laugh like hell alone in the room..
dream too much.. tmr nid go for car lesson wor..
hou 9 sien de!!! nia sing
chooiting's is not happy cos boredom have take away my dimplers
Wednesday, May 7, 2008 || 2:55 AM
yea... lastly i cried out..
asi wan to cry for long time and today i really cried out without reason.
crying without reason make me feel to write down..
and i'm waiting the one that is under the same sky wif~
i MISS him alots~
i believe i will find him!
cos fate will bring him to me ^^
just let me sexy for 5mins!
chooiting is not happy....... cos tears wash off my smile TT
lucky or unlucky?
Monday, May 5, 2008 || 12:39 AM
today i went jusco... a poor JAYA JUSCO or poor perak-ian
why we dont have more and more shopping complex??
pity us! anyways~ today i shud be lucky or unlucky?
lols~ duno... i saw rainbow today.. smtg would make me drop my tears out last time but i dont it's work for me..
izit that i change alot? or i will not feel enuf anymore just bcos of rainbow?
i duno.. just found out that i might change alot from all this time but just hiding to lies myself?
god bless me!!
but the habit for me to take a nice shot for they sky is still maintain~
i'm wondering why do i locked by blog?
is just 1 of my way to release my story to show all my immature thinking!!
no matter outlook or inside my heart i do think myself mature and i wish i could be not mature as i think!
lucky is i really hope rainbow will appear when i feel sad or hopeless...
cos the char will be like my tempo bf~~
who will make me happy although he dun say anythings!
so... no matter wat! i NEED it~
a boyfriend or a rainbow that i wish anytime~
too bad~ XD I REALLY FEEL THAT I'M A SPINSTER LIAO!!!
NO WAY~ we maybe need sum1 by our side when das but doesnt mean we cant survive when we dont have!!!
seriously i oways use this reason to lies myself XD
actually is jut wan to make myself feel better..
atleast he will try to make u not to cry when u crying and oways there for u to talk~
hem.... will HE really appears in my life??
i will wait until he appear!!
but guess he will not be ZID!
today i saw carlie and ah teh..
i'm asking her tat utar send her offer letter mei?
she told me utar sent her liao..
den she teach me how to check..
okay den i checked!
WTF IS THE PROCESS is not received..
niama!! den i told fern..
fern told me they are still pending!!
meaning rainbow bring luck to me!!
tat's i blif i'm still lucky enuf~
and i'm wondering~
whether is fate make us to be lidat or wat!!
i get a new phone and lawyijun lost her ph!!!
told u told u!!! this is fate~~
cant against the rules of fate!!
until now i still think if u believe it will happen!
chooiting is happy today p(^_^)q
love the world~ and love myself